Category Archives: Summer

A New Direction

Yesterday morning, I received an email that kind of sucked the wind out of my sails over my plans for the upcoming school year. I thought I was an easy contender for a job that would be perfect with my schedule with the kids and I was pretty excited about it all.

It ends up that I never even got the chance to apply!  Talk about a way to start off a glorious summer Sunday! (You do hint my sarcasm there, right?)

It put me in a bad mood all day, much to the frustration of my husband and my sweet kiddos. I feel like I’m back at square one trying to figure out what I will do part-time, in addition to my design ideas, but this morning I have had some breathing room and time to think. I’m sitting here in my dining room, staring out my back window, just contemplating the future. Kids are quiet with a friend over all day, so thankfully….I have had some quiet time today to regroup.

I’m enjoying the leftover dying flowers from Maggie’s party….

And I’m thinking on this:

(above image from Raechel Myers IG feed from She Reads Truth)

And I’m realizing (or more likely REMEMBERING) that this whole life thing is not about what I want or how this is supposed to go in my mind. It’s about how it’s supposed to go in the way that’s best for everyone possibly involved. God’s plan is greater.

For a long time now, I have wanted to do something that was helpful in some way or glorifying to God in some way and I keep waiting to see what that is. Yes, I know that raising my babies as my sole job for the last 8 years has been glorifying to God. But now it’s time that I ventured out from the home and I want to see where I can be used. It’s difficult to wait and see what happens, especially when you see it happening all around you. I have lots of interests and ideas of things that I could do to bless others, but I also have to remember that I need to be working to be a secondary supporter to my family’s income now. What job takes those two things hand in hand for me right now? I’m not totally sure yet. I feel that I’m on the brink of knowing and I have a couple of ideas up my sleeve of how to further push this to see where it all goes.

For now, I’ll look upon my dying flowers, enjoying the last couple of days of their color. I’ll enjoy my hot summer days with my babes, I’ll keep reading and learning and searching and forging new friendships. And most importantly, praying over it all.

Please pray with me.

And for me.

And if you have a prayer request you would like to share, please do.

On another subject – I hope to have Magdalen’s birthday party pictures up this week. My friend, Sarah, took them but I forgot to download them from her camera before she left the next day! Aaagghh! My fault, so hopefully I’ll get them somehow to share this week! Happy Monday, friends!

Growing up.

I love this boy with all of my heart. 
And in just one short day, he’ll be back in school, walking the halls as a first grader, and to be completely honest? 
I don’t like it. 
I know parents are supposed to be happy for their kids as they grow and mature and move on in life, but it is a hard thing for me to do. I don’t want to send him back. Not yet. Summer’s not over for me and I want him here with me and his sister each day enjoying these beautiful moments with us. 
I always have heard of parents jumping for joy when the song and business of Back to School starts, but I will never be one of them. I can promise that.
Because really…this summer was epic. 
Maybe not in the sense of the word “epic” that most people would think about, but for me it surely was. 
This was the first summer that Magdalen was talking like a big girl.
The first summer that Maddox was reading.
The first summer that both of them could swim by themselves in the pool without me. 
The first summer that they really rode bicycles together.
The first summer that they slept in a bit and woke up excited to play together before coming to us.
The first summer that Maddox fearlessly started mountain biking with Chad. And was a natural!
The second summer of him playing ball.
(Even on the days when he would finally hit the ball after the 25th pitch, he never gave up. He never acted stressed. He just gave it his cheerful, happy all and always wore a smile. While my heart was silently breaking on the sidelines for him. )
I could go on about how amazing it was, but you get the idea. It was a Big Kid Summer.
So, this Maddox….my eldest….my boy…..
He has always had my heart and he always will. 
He truly is a joy to parent and love and watch mature.
He loves his sister with a fierceness and it was a beautiful thing to watch them become best friends again over the summer and truly enjoy so much time just the two of them. They made up so many games and ideas together and I wish I could bottle that up and live in it forever. 
But of course that is unrealistic. And on the other side of the being-sad-coin is the pride and thankfulness I feel in watching him grow. 
He is such a gentleman.
And creative.
And patient.
And persevering.
And an intelligent little guy.
He was my reading buddy all summer and he probably knocked out 25 real chapter books all by himself since Kindergarten ended. I was impressed at what a little bookworm he became in such a short amount of time. 
More proof that he’s growing and it’s never going to stop.
So……Thursday morning we’ll wake up, do the first day of school rush, take the obligatory front porch photo with his baby sister and off we’ll go to drop him off for another wonderful year at his school. (Where I force my tears behind my smile, because let’s get real….what really kills me is watching him and Magdalen hug and say goodbye to each other. It’s torture! )
And I’ll embrace the school year once again, like a good mama letting her baby fly…..while secretly wishing for the next summer to hurry, hurry, hurry and get here. ; )

Summer is for Slowing Down

Magdalen, 2.5 years old

I have had a great couple of weeks of NOTHING to do but swim, hang out, relax, take naps, and just really enjoy my summer days with the kids.

I am teaching myself (again) how to say “no” to things that are not required and “yes” to things just because they sound fun.

Let me rephrase that. My children are teaching me. ; )

Yesterday, I had tons of things I could have been doing. But instead, I let my two kids and a friend use my furniture as toys (unheard of for me….we respect our hard-earned purchases), ride through the mud puddles on bikes IN the rain (even though the mud spray all the way down Maddox’s back was fierce), and the kids were not required to take baths after it all (gasp!)

Last night, Maddox told me the best part of his day was riding his bike in the rain.

Simple things.

Say yes to summer!